I just thought I would clue everyone in as to what has been on my mind this month.   On December 1st, one of my favorite photographers/bloggers, Me Ra Koh, announced the SOAR! Scholarship.  It is a wonderful opportunity for three women.   It provides them with the tools, the wisdom, the confidence and much more to start a photography career.   Prior to SOAR! Me Ra selected a woman who was Running on Empty to attend each of her photography workshops.   But this time she upped the ante.   So far 73 women have submitted videos showing why they should SOAR! in 2010.   I am one of those women.

For the past three weeks it has been all my mind could think about.   What would make me stand out?   What photos to include?   I setup and filmed clips of myself.  I bribed my children to play quietly while I filmed.  I also bribed them to appear on camera which resulted in me having to bride them to get off camera.

This is my video.

I really have mixed emotions about it.

I don’t know if:

• I did enough to put me in the top three.
• I could have done more.
• I should have said more.

I do know that:

• All of the SOAR! videos displayed wonderful creativity, touching stories, breathtaking photos, and each one showed an amazing woman.   All of the women are so deserving of this scholarship.  View all the videos here.
• I feel like I’ve been on an emotional rollar coaster.  And it is not scheduled to end till January 1st.   Its a long ride.   I’ve been here before though.  Since following her blog, I’ve entered the Running On Empty Mom contest 3-4 times.   I try to think positive and be confident.  But the day the winner is announce I go from sky high to hitting the ground.   So I have mixed emotions about January 1st.
• I did the best I could with the resources I have.
• I chose the best photos I have.   I am not a professional.   I am a mom with a camera, a momarazzi.   I have a year of experience with my camera.   But I have potential.   I was so happy with the photos I took at the museum last week.  It was my first time in complete manual mode.
• I felt good seeing myself on camera.   I didn’t feel self conscious.  I was happy.
• I tried.  I put myself out there.   The only thing they can say is “No” and there is always someone else to ask.

I know that I made the leap.   I just hope 2010 is my year to SOAR!

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